woke up this morning and got myself a gun

no. i didn't. but i've always imagined if i was in a zombie movie i would be the type of person that wakes up in the morning, pulls out a gun, lights a cigarette and just casually blasts the heads off of the hoard of zombies waiting outside my bedroom window. i would be the cool, calm and collected character who doesn't flinch, even while zombie brains reflect back onto my cheek. i don't think it's absurd to imagine these things because you never know. even if its not zombies in the conventional sense, there are reports of mass diseases that turn people crazy and zombie-like. we are just the result of chemical reactions. love, hate, empathy...all of that really isn't you. it's the chemicals that make you, you. that person you think really loves you, wait for the moment that their stock in dopamine, norepinephrine, and vasopressin is low and then tell me if you were really "soulmates". ya. that's the truth. hurts don't it? i'm pretty sure this goes for the love of a mother, father, etc. but getting back to the zombie point... until you tell me that we will no longer have diseases, i'm going to continue plotting my character and weapon of choice until the day i die. and just a hint, don't go to the rooftop of a mall. that's where everyone will be thanks to Mr. Romero.

today's weapon of choice will be Working Towards a Nuclear Free City. released in 2007, Businessmen & Ghosts was released only in the UK but was then distributed in the US (thankfully). i'm late to discover this one but making it up by constant repeats on iTunes. felt quite suitable based on where my head is at today.



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i don't think it's called growing up

i had an interesting conversation yesterday that had me on the verge of tears. the person i was speaking with asked three questions:

- who did you think you were?
- who are you now?
- who do you want to be?

i think my answers led me down a path of some disappointing self discovery. i thought that who i was is the same as who i am, just grown up. maybe more mature. but maturity has nothing to do with this. and that's what bothers me - i have actually disappointed myself. i've let myself down. how is that possible when you control your own actions? no clue.

with that said - i'm offering up an album that i've recently been turned on to by a dear friend. this former punk rock band member turned acoustic folk singer is quite fitting. Frank Turner went from being the vocalist for Million Dead to a solo artist around 2005. England Keep My Bones was released in January of 2011.



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